If you really want to understand Buddhism, search for a Lama, a teacher who suits you. Take refuge and get instructions, initiations for your spiritual practice. ;-)
Start small, try to practice every day, develop devotion to your practice, contemplate and exchange with your teacher and other devotees. :-)
You don't need to be a monk to practice Buddhism.
Look at Milarepa, Marpa, Saraha and the other great yogis. ;-)
Actually practising Buddhism cannot be aim . Aim is always to undertand what is mind and body. When you start exploring mind you will observe body is changing all the time. Every particle born and dies several times every second and this has been proven by scientists which was discovered by buddha 2500 years ago. When you understand this you have to keep trying reducing the gap between conscious ans unconscious mind. This takes ages. One this is done you will be at bliss. Practising Buddhism is like living a monk. Following a certain way of life. Which may not take you where you want to go. Dor example many buddhist countries citizens do not even know about Vipassana. Which was discovered by Buddha and taught by him 2500 years ago. Every single human beign can become buddha.. amd buddha said I am not the first Buddha there have been many in the past and many will become in future.
Thanks for your insights! Ill carry on treading my own path and wish you all the best with yours!! :-)
My best wishes to you.
Thanks, think you missed the point I was making though, I don't want to understand buddhism anymore, Id much rather live my life!! All the best :-)