Edgar was right, looking back at my life now it all seems like a dream and sometimes a nightmare. But it's all good because i understand now it was all a play in my mind and my outer circumstances were just a reflection of what i really felt inside. Don't worry about growing old, when you learn to just row, row, row your boat gently down the stream, your life becomes a dream.
Thank you, I will try not to worry about getting old however inevitable... Sometimes I feel uneasy to go out and talk to people, that I'm gonna have to explain why I am not one of them yet... But just as you say, I'll just treat this stage of my life just another part of the dream.