Thoughts Lurking

I wanna try again but I don't know how.
Is this the right thing to do? Will the past happen all over again?
I'm still engulfed in the darkness that I was involved back then.
The light is fading and I want to reverse it, how?
Fear is lurking at my head, telling me what happened before, will still happen again.
When will be I free from this curse of pain, this suffering I am in chained with.
Set me free Oh heart striking arrow.
Let me loose from this bondage and give me the life that I've always wanted and set a straight path before me.