Bitterly disappointed

They say it is a parent's job to introduce children to disappointment. My parents did their job well.

I am not bitter about my upbringing, but of course it has had a profound effect on my life up until now. One thing I never had to do though, was rebel as there was no need, because to have a rebellion would require an adversary and my parents weren't present.

I may regret this later but, I want to raise a rebel, someone who will take her own path and discover who she is through choices made and experience. I want her to be disappointed by life enough that she says, "there must be a better way".

There must be a better way right? This can't possibly be the end of the road, the best we can possibly do as a species after 2 million years of continuous improvement. From our short life spans though we feel that we live a long time and things move so slowly, yet even when we look at the changes from just a generation or two before, they are remarkable , extraordinary.

Yet, we are still disappointed by out own position, still looking for more with many bitter at the life they lead while others have it better.

If only my parents had...

I don't subscribe to that line of thinking. I have washed my own clothes since seven years of age because otherwise, I'd be the stinky kid at school and, I chose not to be. As flawed as it is, my experience is my responsibility and I own it.

I think Steem is my rebellion of sorts, a fringe investment, a risk taken while others choose to take the safe path, make the safe bet. It isn't a rebellion against anything other than myself though as I am disappointed in some of the decisions I have made. I do not regret them though, they led me to today, they are part of who I will be tomorrow.

Maybe this is the path of personal evolution, disappointment in our performance with enough curiosity and drive to strive for better tomorrow. A continual rebellion against what we were to become what we will be.

I hope my daughter accepts herself for who she is, but never settles for what she is today to the point she is unwilling to find out what she could be tomorrow. I expect she will be disappointed by me and I hope she learns from it.

Taraz
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