Thanks for describing that gnawing sense of emptiness in the pit of my stomach so well. But I have found my way to you, so there's that.
You are not being dramatic. Everyone's being focused on the foibles of a fool isn't helping matters any. It's all been expertly done, by an entity (whatever the eff that is) that we all know has done it many many times before. I wonder how many years it has taken to lay this trap? The rest have just been practice, try and fail. It's time for the big prize.