I am always praying for that someday all the anger, hatred and pain that I've caused will be healed

Even you will not read this. I am always praying for that someday all the anger, hatred and pain that I've caused will be healed. And that's the time you will gave me an answer to all the questions that's still no answers until now. Lastly,someday you will replied to all my messages to you not only a SEENZONE. I accept the fact,nothing will change because I hurt you when the time you gave all but I made a big mess in my entire life. I am so sorry. I wished someday you could forgave me.