You are great! To write of such inner pain is more than many can do. You explain very well in excellent English, which is not your first language. And, your sketches, drawings, if yours, are very good. Good enough for reproduction in cartoon/comics on a commercial scale. You are obviously strong. Remain so. You don't have to prove you are better than you believe you are, but prove you are good enough as the individual that you are. If they cannot see your worth, they are the ones who are missing alot of your life. You keep on participating in being the best you, you know, and they will accept it or lose you when the world takes up your skills to make you even better, and with an income that is yours, alone.
Be well. Keep on keeping on. 😇
May the blessings be.
Resteemed.