MY GIFT, WHERE ART THOU??? **Steemians, I Need Help**

My gift, where are you?! I have searched and searched and still searching for you. But you seem to be making all my hardwork futile.. Is it fair? No! Is it fair??!! #teardrops

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I have prayed and fasted for you just to show up but you are still feeling proud. I have sought from several people on what to do to drag you out. They have all tried in helping out tho, some said you are still inside me, my close friends mentioned some qualities they feel I have in me.
Were they right? I dont know, were they wrong??, i still have no idea. You have even made me contact anonymous, on whatsapp and asked him several questions because I believe he is so intuitive.. And we had the following conversation:-

[6/1, 20:58] Happymichael: Hi
[6/1, 20:58] Happymichael: How are u doing sir
[6/1, 21:04] Anonymous: Great!
[6/1, 21:04] Anonymous: And you?
[6/1, 21:04] Happymichael: Im doing fine..
[6/1, 21:04] Happymichael: I need ur advice on something sir
[6/1, 21:08] Anonymous: Please do share.
We'll be happy to help.
[6/1, 21:12] Happymichael: Its not steemit related tho.. Its a personal issue
[6/1, 21:18] Anonymous: Ok.
Let's hear it.
[6/1, 21:25] Happymichael: I am 20years old now and I have nothing doing at this stage of my life.

I still haven't discovered my talent yet and i am so much pained. I am the first child in my family and a lot of people are looking up to me.. I believe I am not a failure but I want to have something at hand.. Some times, I think about this and it pains me alot
[6/1, 21:25] Happymichael: 😔
[6/1, 21:30] Happymichael: How do i discover my talent ..
[6/1, 21:47] Anonymous: Tell me what do you like to do?
[6/1, 21:48] Anonymous: it's not the discovery,
[6/1, 22:54] Happymichael: Ok
[6/1, 22:55] Happymichael: I like playing football, tho i am not really good at it.. But I have passion for soccer
[6/1, 22:59] Anonymous: Aside from soccer.
What do you find yourself doing that you just like to do?
And you do with so much ease.
Something you just do naturally without much stress
[6/2, 08:15] Happymichael: Well, I dont think I have that
[6/2, 08:15] Happymichael: I dont knw Sir
[6/2, 09:28] Anonymous: You do have.
[6/2, 09:29] Anonymous: There is something you find your self just doing, you are just naturally good at it.
[6/2, 09:30] Anonymous: Everyone has thier gift, so I can assure you a hundred percent that you have a gift or gifts
[6/2, 13:19] Happymichael: 😔 I dont know why its hard to find..
[6/2, 13:19] Happymichael: I think I'mma have to keep on trying to find mine
[6/2, 15:43] Anonymous: It isn't.
You've probably overlooked it.
[6/2, 15:45] Anonymous: You do not have to find anything.
You just have to let it show forth.
You're probably Killing it with something else you're doing
[6/2, 16:25] Happymichael: Really?
[6/2, 17:15] Happymichael: Hello
[6/2, 17:21] Anonymous: Hello🕵🏾‍♂
[6/2, 17:22] Happymichael: Is this a bot
[6/2, 18:21] Anonymous: We do not understand this request!
[6/2, 20:29] Happymichael: May God help me
[6/2, 21:11] Anonymous: We believe he is.
[6/2, 21:16] Happymichael: Amen
[6/2, 21:17] Happymichael: Please, how did you become who you are today
[6/2, 21:17] Happymichael: You are so wise and thoughtful
[6/2, 21:41] Anonymous: Who am I?
[6/2, 21:42] Anonymous: Humility and Time.
[6/2, 21:53] Happymichael: A person of immense wisdom
[6/2, 21:54] Happymichael: Wow! Can u teach me
[6/2, 21:57] Happymichael: ?
[6/3, 09:41] Anonymous: We'll get back to you.

Well, he sent me a pdf which i am yet to read but will do that ASAP. May God help me. I really dont want to be useless in life... Yes, I am schooling but what about my gift?! I have uncles abroad, but what about my own gift?! God I really need uou now, pls do not forsake me at this stage of my life. Well, I have been thinking lately, maybe I really do need to a psychologist, I think i would contact my steem mum @abigail-dantes (#psychology).

But please if you think you can help me outta my dilemma, I would really appreciate it.. Please!!!

THANKYOU!!!