Hi @darnscotty, for what it's worth, you might need to work on the nerves of steel part as you get used to not having a steady, predictable income in the short term. Cute young things offering you credit cards and all you have to do is provide 3 months of salary slips as proof of income...things like that are reminders that you've joined the other world of Not Salarimen. I'm not surprised your emotions are going haywire. You'd be a little odd if they didn't. You're finding a new normal and it's weird. There will be lots of support and guidance available! A big part of being an entrepreneur is psychological...and cricket. Getting 1s and 2s on the board instead of waiting for sixes. Those 1s and 2s can build into steady income in a shorter time than you expect. And just like in cricket, keeping your eyes on the ball. In this case, the ball is the question "Why am I doing this?" Thinking about what value you, @darnscotty, entrepreneur extraordinaire, can create with your unique talents and capabilities. A lot, I'll bet!

On me: I was actually born in England, and moved to Canada when I was 6 (ok, that was the parents moving - we followed along). I moved to South Africa for many reasons, starting with work (was transferred here by the Canadian company I was working for at the time), but I was waiting for that opportunity to open up as I'd been working off and on in Southern Africa since 1989, with Zambia as the hub of my work activities. Saw poinsettias growing as big as trees and "flowering" without having to be put in cupboards for 12 hours a day, and was hooked by Africa. The story was a bit more complicated than that, including a couple of dignity- and butt-bruising falls on the ice in January as I was walking to work in Montreal - I just decided to respond to the pull of Africa. When the company closed the office in Joburg a couple of years later and said "We're bringing you home," I had a light bulb moment that this is truly home, warts and all. So here I am. Home.