RE: You Aren't Alone, Things Can Get Better & I'm Still Here For You if Needed.
Laura and I got along fine if I didn't offer her advice, she was full of rage and pain, all I could do is listen. We both struggled with autoimmune disease and pain from sexual abuse. I have so much experience dealing with the struggles and coming out healthy, I didn't give up, which so many times I wanted too. It took me 25 years with no help from the medical community, they wanted to give me pills, pills don't fix external problems like addictions, negative conditioning, dysfunctional relationships with self and other, the causes of my health problems.
I tried telling her don't give up, live to be healthy....I understand why she left. For those who are contemplating suicide please don't commit suicide with a troubled mind! Find balance first and when you do, you will find the pain and loneliness isn't so bad and you can live to help others who are struggling to find balance.
I also gathered from my talks with her that she was heavily effected by her past abuse, carrying it around like dead weight. Knowing you reddust you did what you could to cheer her up and free her from the sorrow she'd kept with her so long.
You're 100% correct about the pills. I've tried mood stabalizers and antidepressants myself.. Great way to dull yourself out and be high as shit on the doctors sponsored meds.. But at the end of the day it's ultimately yourself that decides if you're going to try to be a survivor or let the past destroy you.
Proud of you reddust. You're an inspiration to myself and many others here.
The antidepressants wrecked my digestive system and I suffered from weight gain along with malnutrition. Which made everything worse. I found out the system makes profit from my illness and does not practice health medicine only symptom management.
Thank you @kyle, I hope others will explore why they are ill and find balance. Many of us will never be totally healthy but we still can find balance even when our world is full of rage and pain. I have seen so many people find their health, if not health, they find ease whilst they are dying through disciplining the mind, developing healthy relationships and diet.
If anyone needs to chat with me, I will dump my aversion to chat rooms and give you my ear to listen and the use of my shoulder to cry on....and if you give me free rein I will drown you in meditation and nutritional advice <3