Trust me you are eligible to get what you want
There is not a perfect person in this world, all must have had advantages and disadvantages of each. The most scathing critic of is ourselves and our own thoughts. If you have a desire to explore the world, go for it! If you have a desire to write a book, go for it! If you have the desire to help children in need, please do so! Don't be too much thinking and making various excuses for not doing your wishes, if not now when?