I know that tense feeling you talk off. Sorry for sharing it to you. It has lessened for me so im ready for round two. I am down from around 40 a day to ten and that just crept up to a few more. I was down low as three or four at first. Still haven't managed a day without yet. But im sure ten a day is way less and easier to throw than 40 a day. I could be at this a while yet. Don't hold breath waiting for the fallen soldier on this occasion. I WILL get there and catch up to you again. Everything just seems pretty fucked atm 😂to be expected I guess