I do not know how to live further

I don `t know how to go on living ... and in general, can I live on ... two nights I can not sleep anymore ... the cat is scratching my heart in my heart ...

I am married to have children ... but so fate has turned that I met a married man and began to meet with him ... but after a month of our meetings I parted with him ... and just two days ago his wife from somewhere learned about me ... came to me at night and provoked to scandal ... scared my children and I in the heat of anger said: I'll kill you again to come to me ... she wrote it all down to the recorder and took it to the police ...

She wrote me a statement ... but I'm not even afraid of it ... I'm afraid that my husband finds out about it ... now he's on a business trip ... Tomorrow he'll come and learn about everything ... It's hard for me to think that we destroyed two families ... 4 Hearts ... a little world and children's dreams ... I do not know how to be ... how to continue living and whether it is possible to live with these and how ...