Black Sheep...

Ive felt like the blacksheep of my family for as long as I can remember.. For starters I was rasied separate from my sibling in a completely different house hold by different people.. Granted my sibling and I have the same mom but different dads.. I grew up with rough people and rough surroundings but my sibling had the glits and the glam.. So with me living different gave me resentment towards my mom like how could you raise one but not the other. honestly there was even a lil resentment towards my sibling because they had it easier then me. I mean even now being a adult I still carry that resentment in my heart but I never let it show on the surface because my love for them is much too strong but when you feel like every moment in your adulthood reminds you of your childhood how can you not continue to feel like the black sheep.. Feeling like their bound is stronger then your bound.. Feeling like your love for them goes unnoticed.. Feeling less of your self only because youve been the outsider all your life. The only thing that has gotten me through is knowing who I am.. Knowing that my heart is pure with geniuwine love for them I pray for them and hope for a change one day.