usually people are nonconformist, especially when we know that we can give ourselves a better taste,

As for John, I think he has a lot to process, is angry with life, since time is not going very well and suddenly a person who begins to help him appears, although it is good, he knows it will not be forever, you would have to understand it, because you do not want to sleep in those beneficiary homes, you know what happened there, like the church that did not want to return, in the end many things may be happening inside, maybe the distance is because it is quotient that all this good will not last forever
Thank you very much for sharing this experience
I wish you a great day