How I Became "the ASSHOLE", The Hoody

(I appreciate all the feedback, especially if it's about the lengths of the parts.. I don't intend to make it short but I don't want to overdo it as well. Thank you, Waiting for you answers...)

                                       -    Part 2      -

(The source of this story is my journals, so if it feels like there is an insane amount of details, you are right... because the majority of it is recorded in writing)

I told about all this to one of the fellas from our group to which he replied, "Yeah I had figured it out, I was checking where you were looking all so "discreetly" and smiled.I asked for some advice from him. I was so out of control at that point. He said the hard part was over, there was contact and we were classmates; hence all the more contact. "You take her out a couple of times and this is done."

(I thought "Well, duh. But I don't know the city at all, where the hell am I supposed to take her?")

Anyway, he lived in the city so he knew the places, where he took me over the weekend so I could pick.

I mean, what was so wrong with all this anyway. I would take her out as a "friend". Simple as that. There was nothing wrong about this. I was in love, the purest of all emotions...

In the meantime, one of the fellas met a girl from our class who didn't show up the first week over MSN. (No social media back then...) and was intending to get her into the “crew”.

I liked to be with Aysen but because I had to go along with the group, we hung out with the 4 v 4 “crew” from time to time. That’s what that was about.

The weekend couldn’t have passed more slowly. Who on earth would think “God, I wish the Monday comes fast and I could go to the school”? I swear I would get up 3 hours before the lectures started so I could make up my hair and stuff.

Days passed and here came the Monday. I was so not able to contain my self in the dorm room. I had the contact, I was trying to find common interests and such... I was fully motivated.

We arrived at the school. And Serhat the Bastard was waiting with the girl he mentioned in front of the building. I guess he had taken the earlier shuttle.

I was restless to get to the class and see my love but on the other hand, that ambiance in front of the building; the fellas, the girls.. I couldn’t really leave it behind.

We met the new girl. Her name was Ebru. Sweet one, a little too preppy you would call her maybe but she was nice. She was from Izmir, nice city and background. She was like waiting for a chance to be “naughty” but was obviously gonna screw everything up if she was in a position, and was so not able to keep her cool.

After a little chit-chat in front of the class we got in.

The first you see was where Aysen was sitting anyway, where she was shining like the moonlight...

I was waiting for some other girl to settle so I could go to her and say Hi, so I kept looking at her a little but she didn’t really notice, talking to those around her with her exited smile again..

Demoralized I sat down, looking at her to get a chance of course..

Then the rest of the crew arrived, settling down. Then this girl Ebru came and sat down right next tome abruptly. “I just sat down, this is empty,right?” she said.

“No, it’s okay, welcome” I replied, smiling like an ass.

(Of course it’s not okay but what was I gonna do? Tell you it’s not empty like an asshole AFTER you sat down?)

The lecture started, me sitting in the wall-side again, glancing at which-side-you-know.

Of course I didn’t think about it back then but I can bet my ass now Ebru was thinking I was glancing HER the whole lecture..

Lecture ended..

The crew and I was going out, I looked Aysen’s way, she saw me back and we exchanged smiles..

“You go out, I will catch you later” I told the crew. I approached Aysen’s in the meantime. (Now that I think about it, I was a little ballsy for my age, the idiot courage...)

She was sitting with da bitch. I said “Hi, wassup?”.

Good and such she replied and we started to chat up again. She offered me some of her bagel, in the meantime I was harassing the bitch a little so she wouldn’t get in the way of things again.

As we talked the break time just poured away we didn’t even notice..

The crew returned, I had got back to my desk so they wouldn’t get suspicious. The only one who knows about it was my dormmate, Okan. He of course knew what was going on but Serhat was instantly like “Why didn’t you come out man?
What the hell” and stuff.

I made up a few excuses (As if I had to answer to him for fuck’s sake...)

That whole lecture Ebru tried like hell to make me laugh, which I pretended I did..

The lecturer almost threw us out cuz of the noise we made.. God knows what Aysen thought about all that. Maybe she couldn’t care less, but I was feeling like some sprouting was happening, the kind I didn’t root for at all...

Days gone by...

It was the midst of the third week I guess..

I was falling more and more in love with Aysen, maintaining my relatinship with the crew as well..

(Piece of advice to the young folks: The crew is everything in college. You are as cool as those around you. Either get into one crew, or make your own one. Otherwise, you will be one of those losers who do nothing but listen to the lectures all the four years at college. That lone island act doesn’t fly at the university)

One bad aspect of our crew.. They smoked like a chimney. And of course at the time there was no “No Smoke” law at place, and me ,as a non-smoker, was getting disturbed like hell. To this day, I haven’t even touched one.

Ebru and I got dangerously close, sitting with me every lecture, Serhat the Bastard ,of course, is utmost disturbed by this situation.(she introduced us and all that..) I was aware of the discomfort, but I couldn’t care less cuz my expectations at the time was no more than a few chit chats with the crew. It was their problem, why should I have cared?

My care was with Aysen, and of course my dormmate Okan; the man, the myth, the legend. The rest could have stayed away.

Anyhoo, thay day, I couldn’t approach Aysen cuz the crew took me as hostage, the lecture ended, me and Okan got to the city center

It was raining a little, that annoying kind, not makes you wet but stings you like a bitch..

We were looking for a joint to talk and stuff when Okan suddenly said to me: ”Dude, isn’t that your girl?”

Yep!!! There she was. Standing under a dome with her umbrella and the bitch at her side, as if waiting for someone...
We were on the other side of the road, I almost jumped in the road to cross, which almost killed me btw.. Okan was like

“Dude, wtf, chill a little..”

We crossed the road, got near them, exchanged Hi’s...

“What are you doing in this rain?” I asked laughing a little

“Waiting for a friend” she replied, with that cute smile..

I got demoralized in the instant. I mean what friend? A guy? A girl? Who is this?

She realised my face expression I guess and said

“Some girl from the Nurse Training Department” I didn’t know at the time if she did to cheer me up or whatever but I didn’t care about it at all. She was a girl was all that was important to me

I asked if they had a specific plan..

“No, we were just waiting for her, to decide what we would do when she arrives” she replied.

There it was.. “Come on Lyubov, this is your chance” I thought to myself. And even more, my wingman was with me..

I said “There is this joint that I like very much, would you like to join us?” (the place that Okan showed me of couse, I had never been there before)

“Of course!” she replied with shining eyes.

I’m high as a star at that point.. “This is gonna happen, you will have someone you love for the first time, this is it” I was thingking to myself.. I was just counting the chickens before they wre hatched unfortunately...

Her friend arrived.. a nice one I thought. Okan would go for her and the bitch would just die out of boredom in her little corner... so I thought.. There is my revenge..

We went to the joint.. Okan and I was wet as hell btw. I took out my hoody, which Aysen placed on the radiotor at the side of the table.

“You are gonna get sick, why didn’t you take a coat?” she scolded me a little.

And I was like “She cares about me!”

We had a great conversation there, talking about our hometowns, how we enjyoed it here, what food we like and stuff..

I learned everything about her, and she about me..

Only one thing mattered for me at that table, the rest was shit. And my mind which was still among the stars only wished that she was thinking about the same.. No one had yearned something stronger than that before..

I took her phone number, left her to her the dorm, kissed her on the cheek (I mean in a friendy way, who knows what she was thinking?) Couldn’t wish for anything better actually. I literally floated in the air on the way to my dorm.. My feet weren’t tounching the ground..

I didn’t realise the three text messages on my phone which Ebru had sent while we were at the joint until midnight..

I didn’t reply back.. We had done all the “What you doin’..” texting already anyway..

I texted Aysen instead.. The radiators at her dorm was not burning apparently and she cold (state funded dorm).. Mine were like burning like hell (prive funded)

“I wish I was cold instead of you” I said

“You got cold enough today, I hope you don’t get sick” she replied.

“If I do, would you make me some soup” I asked

“Do you really have to get sick for us to get some soup” she replied.

And so on and on.. mutual compliments, insuniations and such.. I had turned into Joker with my smiling all night..

We decided a date for the weekend..

The happiest night of my life, couldn’t sleep again of course. But this time, it wasn't tension or anxiety.. I was just.. Happy..