My Lovelife Story: Such a coward

I'll not introduce myself but I will start to my story now.

I am loving a girl whose wearing an eyeglasses. She has a very long hair. She is very beautiful and I am so much attracted to her. But she doesn't know anything what I feel for her and how much I care for her. I don't have a courage to say that I love her even a little I don't. I didn't know why but in the other girl I can say boldly that she is nice and she is cute but to her even I'll say it as a joke. I can't say it.

I am having now a little serious problem. For hiding my feelings for her in 2 years time. I am being attracted to other person who were my schoolmate in highschool. That girl is my crush since 1st year highschool up to now. She's very nice and beautiful but I don't hope anything for her because she is a girl with a very high standard. As what I can say.

The girl with the glasses I am talking is my highschool classmate but now she is my churchmate. I'm happy that she stays in our church. I know God will do something about it. I always take her at their home everytime we end up late at night. We walked to their village at night and here I am. Not saying anything, "I'm such a loser" like Angelina always saying to her Yaya.

We have a very good comparison. In our class, we have a class number. She is the girl number 6 and I am the boy number 6. We were always partner in every activity because of the pairing of number. And also, She is a left-handed and also I am a left-handed. Is that a coincedence? Or not? But here's more. Our birthdate is in the "BER" month. I am DecemBER and she is in SeptemBER. See? And also our day of birth is 6. I am Aug. 6, 1990 and she is Sept. 6, 1990. Can I say this a coincedence? I am. It is not. Are we made to each other or not? I think we were but wait. Do you know the "LAW OF MAGNETISM"? Law of Magnetism states that: Like Poles REPEL, and Unlike Poles ATTRACTS. If this is true. I will be very sad because we have so many the same things in our life. As what as the Law of Magnetism tells, "LIKE POLES REPEL." Meaning, we will won't attract each other. But I have a faith that we were made to each other and I will break that rule no matter what.

The first thing that I should do is to recover my true feelings for her and stand firm to face my fear to say that I love her.

Sometimes I have a courage but most of time I didn't have when she is beside me it's like that I don't have any feelings for her when she's beside me, I act normal. But when she's not beside me that's the time I act strange and breathing deeply and saying, "If I only have a courage to say, How much I love you. I will never be like this." I'm tired thinking about of all good memories that make my heart big. There's so much bitter situation I have under gone and I will tell it next time..