That is so sad :(

As much as I feel I'm going to panci every time my eyes clock a stranger, I try to smile and be polite. As long as they don't talk to me lol or anything more than "bonjour" or something like that. Usually that's what it is, I get very uneasy when strangers try to chat me up. Maybe not the little old ladies or little old men, usually they'Re friendly and gabby and it's funny.

When I go somewhere like a store, I smile at the cashier. When I worked as one, I would smile even at the most "chap faced" customer. The "chap" face is a long story, but it's like a frown, a neutral, not impressed face, no emotions. Sometimes customers would smile in the end or thank me for smiling.

Once a lady was looking at me with those angry eyes and still smiled (of course, back then, I didn'T have anxiety like I do now) and I kept smiling at her as though her mood didn't affect me. The next day, she came back to the shop and apoligised to me for having been so cold and thanked me, because my smile had touched her and she wanted me to know that she appreciated it and it helped her feel better when she got home.

That's why, even if I'm scared now of everything and anything, I smile at people. You never know when it will save a life, or at least, helps omeone feel better.