Hello steemit readers ....can you spare me few seconds of your time, I know I may sound stupid but only a listening ear I ask for.

This was how I spoke to my reflection in the mirror which was about to walk out of me. As weird as it seems these I could communicate.

I had my first kiss at 16. It left a sweetsour taste on my lips. Sweet 'cause it still cling to my memory till date. Sour 'cause I felt I'd betrayed my mum. I'd love the attention those "foolish boys" gave me. Foolish 'cause all their nutshaped brain could think about was getting their hands underneath my skirt.

It is said "if one can control his emotions then he's one step close to his apex". Yeah.. I sure believe in that.
My emotions was my weakest link but still I'd set lot of bridges ablaze,built walls thick and rocky, properly constructed like The Great Wall of China.

You were with me on the third day of christmas when I ate from the tree in the centre of Eden. I did not know who told mum but she enquired on it days after.

Of course I never had the heart to lie to her. I'd watched the big grin on her beautifully wrinkled face turned into a stormy sea.

She told me I betrayed her but you know I never did.
It was far from it. You alone I can't lie to. I was tired of living the "double standard" life.

The hypocrisy drained every energy I had left in me. The "virginity" was long gone the day I had my first kiss followed by more which I have miscounted.

Chastity can only be pronounced with an untouched lips. I won't say am feasting on the self-justification cake but atleast you get what am talking about. Does it still make it right?...............

I had asked for few seconds but its more then ten minutes now.

Last time I spoke with you. You'd told me to "take things the way I see it" am sorry I neglected it. Like a black stubborn sheep I dished it out swiftly. I allowed every little thing influence my actions. I pushed out those who could help me fix myself. Even you, the me in myself left me alone, out there in the cold.

But from today I sure will adhere to your advice. My present is the product of my past;it actions, it decisions and what have you.

Its was almost thirty minutes, I watch my reflection smile back at me. This was all I ever wanted.

Inspired By: Julia Micheal's single titled "Issues"

Written By: @Nonnyfresh

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