At the end of the day doing what you love will always help you sleep better. If you have to get a job for a while don't berate yourself juat do it and leave when you are back on your feet. Our world is made up of many parts and like any game there are many positions to play. Enjoy experiencing them all and try not to second guess your decision making abilities. We all learn. We went through something very similar recently.

Crypto markets are relatively new to navigate so any wisdom gleaned will serve, not only you but others too from your experience.
Thanks for sharing, I hope things pick up for you!!