Everything changed after I turned 30
I knew things would change. But I was naive about how much.
The first couple of months post 30 felt almost the same as the months before.
Then, out of the blue, I felt my 20s pulled from under me. I said a final goodbye and began living as a 30 something-year-old.
I was never afraid of concluding my 20s. It was something I simply never thought about. I thought I would kill myself before that.
So, I'm feeling slightly unprepared now that I'm here. Even out of place.
There are days I wake up and feel like I've woken up from the dead. Am I really alive at 30?
I look around me and see my parents a little older, my nephews a little bigger and think to myself, I should be so lucky to see this.
I'm surprised at how much happier I am these days. I haven't felt this way in decades.
Decades.
Time flies by very quickly when you're happy. When I was suicidal, I felt the minutes tick by. My mind would always be filled with a lot of thoughts I didn't like.
Now, days seem to merge together without my noticing. It was January, and now it's suddenly November. And November is almost ending.
In my 20s, I liked escaping from my life. I travelled a lot. Not because I liked seeing the world (I don't remember much of what I saw), but because I liked how it distracted my mind from me.
By being on the move, I had the perfect reason not to listen to myself.
I still like to travel, but with a different intention now.
Only 2 months more before I step into another year in my 30s. I had no intention of writing this, but I was listening to some old songs I used to listen to in my 20s and thought myself:
I was such a different person then.
Here's to us. Older, wiser, happier. Cheers.
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Hah hah... just wait until you reach your 60's! That's when you see people around you dying more than before and time really flies by! All the little children you once knew are all grown up, with some having children of their own.
In some ways nothing changes, but in other ways, there are huge changes. It can be very interesting if we open our mind to curiosity.
Stay happy and keep living. I believe we are here to learn and mature in spirit, contributing to the universal knowledge.
I lost 2 of my good friends before I turned 25. Loss is not new to me, nor an indication of how time flies. In any case, I'm looking forward to see how long I'll survive :)
I just mentioned the 2 in the same sentence, but was not associating them with each other. Sorry for any confusion.
Let's hope you survive long enough to feel accomplished and ready to go.
I wish you the same.
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