I really sympathise and indeed empathise with you having had some very similar issues.

Whilst Steemit is great people like us need to be careful NOT to become do dependant on it or become too disheartened if it doesn't work out.

Part of depressive thinking is a whole host of cognitive errors that can blow up small things and make them look like major catastrophes when if you were thinking with your rational mind you would barely think twice about it.
At the wrong time and in the worst circumstances this can lead to actual tragedies.
Always put your health and well being first. It is not worth making yourself ill over something that is ultimately inconsequential when compared to the well being of you and your family.

If it gets you stressed turn off you computer or phone and step away.