I want to preface this post with an apology. A number of you sent me donations that have ultimately been wasted. In my defense, I had been expecting a considerable one that someone told me was on the way, and so I thought it would be best to hold onto the BTC I had already received until the substantial donation arrived and I would be able to pay the rent in its entirety. Either it was a stupid idea, or I was just incredibly unlucky, but I ended up allowing the BTC to lose a significant amount of value before I finally sold it.

This is why I asked everyone to stop sending donations, because I thought I would have everything handled upon receiving the incoming one. It has still not arrived, and now I expect it not to. And after the loss in value, I was barely able to take much of a dent out of the rent anyway, because another month's has been added on since. Now, please do not send any donations now, because it really will not help at this point. All you will do is waste my time having to send them all back. Also, a new demand for 1200 council tax has arrived which I am not going to pay just out of principle. So either way things do not look good.

So, I cannot express how sorry I am. Many of you went out of your way to be generous, and in return, I wasted the donations paying a fraction of the rent that I had no need to, for it seems rather clear at this point that I will be fucking off regardless. I was also working on some completely customized animated banners for a few of you, but I do not believe I have the time to complete any but one of them, so I am going to have offer an alternative means of repayment for the rest of you.

That repayment will come in the form of a very serious tutorial on how to elevate your consciousness and strengthen your connection to the Creator- or Earth, I really do not know what this force is, but I can give you what you need to prove I'm not insane for yourself.

But before I do that, there are a couple of things that I feel to be of the utmost importance, and that I feel compelled to talk briefly about before I move on to whatever's next.

We Need To Learn To Love One Another Right Fucking Now

The refugee crisis is no accident. Neither is the anti-Islamic sentiment that is being propagated by many of the world's most influential speakers and a great deal of what is known as the right or alt right media.

I have recently indulged in debate with a few of these characters who have been spending all their time spreading essentially hate and fear of Islam, and I have found that the defense usually cited for their actions is that the Quran says some evil shit in it about killing non-believers.

It doesn't matter what the Quran says. The Bible and the Talmud are also disgusting books. But all three are also heavily contradictory. They preach both love and hate, perhaps intentionally to confuse the morality of its readers.

If you are going to rally against the evil doctrine of Islam, then you would be better served rallying against the evil doctrines of religion as a whole. By singling out Islam, we are pushing the immigrants into a corner. At the moment, it is a small portion of Muslims that want death to all non-believers. Statistics might tell you otherwise, but statistics are a propaganda tool and cannot be trusted. Learn your information by speaking directly to Muslims, and you will find that most just want to do the right thing and keep their families safe.

But at the moment, so much fear and hatred of Islam is being forced down our throats. The governments are also making very obvious changes to the law to increase crime-rates so it can be blamed on the immigrants.

As an example, here in the UK, Teresa May passes a law to make it illegal for cops to chase criminals on motorbikes or mopeds in case they fall off and hurt theirselves. This is immediately followed by a meteoric explosion in moped crime in London. Now with crime-rates so high, people think the immigrants are to blame, when really it is the government. But by shining a light on any crimes committed by immigrants and paying less attention in the media to other things, they will convince us that the immigrants are directly responsible for the rise in crime-rate and people will become even more fearful and hateful of them.

As I said earlier, the main reason people think they are right about Islam being the enemy is because of words in the Quran. But, such a person would be conflating the values of a book with the values of someone who read that book. But that person may have also read many other books, or they may do in future, books that change their values from that which in the Quran. There are apparently 1.8 billion Muslims. That is a fucking lot of people to be labeling as evil, and it is obviously not true. Most Muslims I have met in my life have been friendly. But, most I meet in future will not be if we continue to make them feel unwelcome, especially when in a lot of cases, they are only here because of the apathy we had towards our government's actions in their countries.

Someone actually said to me yesterday that war between the black hats and the white hats is coming, so I had better hurry up and make sure I am on the right side. Of course this person was referring to Islam as the black hats, and genuinely believed that he was wearing a white hat while calling out for the death of others that he had not even met.

If we continue to isolate ourselves from one another, it will lead to anarcho-capitalism in many countries. Whether that be a response to a civil war, which results in many cultures all having their own private mini-governments within each of these countries, or whether it will just be a vote that takes us there, I don't know. But, anarcho-capitalism is not what many on here believe. It is simply, there are no rules unless you pay someone to make and enforce them- and there will be plenty willing to enforce them because they will have families to feed. I see this ending up with a completely divided set of nations, with territories that all have different laws, some which may include paedophilia and slavery.

I also believe that during this time a great many poor people who cannot afford security will die, and that this is another part of the agenda- to depopulate the Earth but to have it be the people who did it, not the government, so that afterwards, when the Global Union offers us a way out, we will know that government works best and we will accept.

Now, I didn't want to get too conspiracy theoristish.. even though I really do believe I am close to the mark on this agenda. So if that sounds too crazy to you, just forget all of it and think about what will happen if a war breaks out between immigrants and locals in these countries. The rest i will leave to your imagination.

Anti-Islamic and anti-immigrant propaganda is leading to this end. There is only one way to stop it from my perspective, and that is to go out in your local community, speak to the Muslims, speak of your worries about the growing division among the community, and try and come to some common ground.

If the diverse communities around the world can find a reason to care for one another, even if it is only out of a desire to preserve all our cultures, then we will not have the civil war they are trying to so desperately to push upon us.

I ask that you seriously think about what you're doing if you ever find yourself writing or reblogging a post that is about how dangerous Islam is. All you are doing is making your own people afraid of them, and making Muslims feel unwelcome in the countries they were forced to move to.

All we have to do is go out there and start sowing seeds of community. Perhaps then, if a community spirit can be established, then conversation with Islamic leaders may very well ensure that people follow the good messages in the Quran rather than the negative ones.

I think many in the West are under this false belief that because we have a government, things could never get too bad. I on the other hand believe that the first world and third world are about to switch positions, and so these countries are certainly liable to fall into serious shit. I am going to do my best to sow some seeds of community here in Glasgow, I would strongly suggest that you do too, for if you are a divided community when the economy goes boom, or some other event happens that sets things in motion, then you will have to fight and kill for territory to protect your people. But if we can make everyone that lives in our country our people, and if we can remind ourselves why they're even here, then when the world goes to shit, we will care enough about our community as a whole to avoid going to war for territory, and instead we will simply seek to look out for one another.

Steemit is not an accurate representation of reality

Everywhere I have ever gone in my life, I have been very popular and very well liked. I always had multiple social groups because people who did not like one another, all still liked me, and I tended to like everyone.

On Steemit, however, I am a nobody with nothing to say worth listening to. But that's not because I have changed and I am not still the type of person who people admire. I may have shut myself away from the world somewhat, but I still have to go out in the world every day with my dog multiple times, and I still feel the same appreciation I always did when conversing with strangers.

I have not changed. Not me, just my perspective. So why am I no longer someone worth listening to, or voting for? It is because I don't have SP, and because I do not enter any of these unspoken circle-jerks.

I do not say this to complain. There would be entirely no point anyway because I'll be gone when this post is complete. I say this so that you will not blindly follow the opinions of high SP accounts purely because their post is trending. I suspect that very soon there will be an influential Steemian on here spreading hatred and fear of Islam. Perhaps they are already here, I haven't looked in a while.

But I realise that the whole point of this type of system is to silence people like me, and to elevate the voices of people who will do anything for money, so that is what everyone else will learn. This has the power to shape so many opinions for the worst, and so I literally fucking beg you to think about whether the person whose post you are reading or liking is really a valuable perspective, or a harmful one, and I ask you to start using your votes on people who at least try to do some good here and there, and promote positive messages not hateful or damaging ones.

Steemit is not an accurate representation of reality, but it will be soon if you do not learn to see it for what it is.

How to talk to God

You will forgive me for taking so long to arrive at this point, but I can't really express how important those things seem to me. Now in regards to how to speak to God, it is actually both very simple and very fucking difficult. But before I tell you, I need to first warn you, because this is actually a very dangerous thing for you and for the ones you love.

It was over a year ago I first communicated with God, and since then I have thrown not only my own life, but the lives of my family into disarray attempting to hold onto that connection. This is because I have discovered that the true path to what certainly seems like ascension, is moral discipline.

I discovered this completely by accident, simply through trying my best to do the right thing. I broke life down into a series of choices, where there is only one right choice, and one wrong choice, in perpetuity. By repeatedly making what you honestly believe to be the right choice, you will grow closer and closer to something that feels like God, but in truth I do not know for sure what it is. When you have done the right thing long enough, you will be rewarded with an elevated level of consciousness that allows you to see synchronicity everywhere, to see obvious signs and interpret them very clearly, have your vision appear far brighter and colours seem to be alive, and, if I am not crazy, to see the future/past or glimpses of another life you have lived. Beyond all of that you get a feeling that is simply indescribable, and that nothing in this world could possibly compare to- and I believe I am in a good position to make such a claim, because I did a hell of a lot of hard drugs in my teens, so I have felt some pretty special shit.

However, once life forces you to make a choice that you know to be wrong, typically for the well-being of another in your life, in my case very often my dog; the connection is instantly severed and it can take months of moral discipline to get it back. The danger in this lies in what one must do, and what one must sacrifice in order to do the right thing.

You will no doubt find that it is incredibly difficult to make money without betraying your morals, unless you already have some- for then it is easy. But, if you are living day to day, then doing the right thing all the time is what gets you into a lot of debt, and a lot of problems. And in my case, it led to many problems for my family too, because they put their self into shitty positions to ensure that I did not die through trying to do the right thing.

What I am offering is a very strong spiritual connection that transcends the material, and ultimately feels like the very point of life if I am to be completely honest. It seems to me like to experience that, is what we're all here for, and I wish I could have taken it further to see where that path ends. Alas, the further down the road you go, and the more your material life falls into ruin, it becomes more difficult to see what the right choice is, or at least to admit it to yourself.

Doing the right thing is sometimes as easy as not trying to get the last word. But other times it is as difficult as saying no to something that you know will vastly improve the quality of life for you and the ones you love.

I should also mention that a strong connection to this force is incredibly rare, or it was for me at least. In the last year, I have probably had less than 24 hours of what I have dubbed "godmode." Where I can see how everything is connected and understand signs from the universe to me. Each of these occasions, which were only a few hours each, brought me insight that left me with investigations that lasted months, and are still ongoing.

Beneath Godmode, however, when you are still making mostly right choices, you will not have the major abilities I spoke of before. But, you still get signs, and have other spiritual experiences. But, those signs are often difficult to interpret in that state, and the spiritual experiences are often up for debate. But when in God mode, there is no doubt, everything is crystal clear.

So if you are going to attempt this, you need to be prepared for your life to fall apart, and if you have many people that you love, you could be putting theirs at risk too. For me, moral discipline took me to a place where I actually realised that eating vegetables is immoral. For you have to murder the entire plant in order to harvest it, whereas with fruit, you can simply take it and the plant lives on to provide more. I have come to look at plants as the neural networks of the earth. It is the world's intelligence, and we are destroying it, and our connection to nature with it.

Now, I should say, I eat vegetables now. And because I cannot afford to eat solely vegetables, and I was getting incredibly thin, I have also returned to eating dairy in small quantities. Though, I am unable to eat meat again still. Though for me it is no longer morality that prevents me eating meat. I know, given all the nutrients I have been missing, that a meal of meat would do me very good. But, it's just got to a point where the very idea of putting a dead body in my mouth makes me feel very sick.

I am getting off the point. What I am trying to say to you is that your path is not mine. My thinking led me to feel this way, but yours need not. As long as you are honest with yourself about what you truly believe to be right and wrong, I am confident you will experience what I did. You only need the human experience and self-reflection, and of course honesty, to know what is right and what is wrong.

I am putting moral discipline to the side now. It is not that I want to, but that I've arrived at a place where making the right choice is all but impossible. I cannot keep doing the right thing if it hurts my family. Because that cannot be the right thing. So at the moment, I do not know what is, and so rather than wasting my time trying to figure it out while shit continues to get worse, I am going to return to doing what I must to get back into a position where I can afford to try and be extremely moral again.

But I will get on that path again as soon as I feel I can do so without risking the lives of others, and at that point, I very much hope to see some of you on that path with me.

Goodbye, my friends family.

Also, another important thing before I go- and this observation was most definitely helped by my elevated states of consciousness;

https://steemit.com/steemit/@son-of-satire/is-steemit-trying-to-fuck-us-warning-potential-truth-inside