I've always had an excess of creative energy. I didn't always know how to constructively channel it, and ended up with a lot of addictive patterns and inner chaos. I felt compelled to both write & produce music - writing flowed smoother as I hadn't built up the full production skill set yet, though I was never really applying my writing constructively a more just a lot of reflections and trying to blow off the steam (pun not intended) from the backed up energy, posting as Facebook notes and some blog stuff that I was too self-conscious of, due to the neurosis infused into it, to actively build into something more - though it was also just what I had to go through at the time.

I've been doing a lot of consciousness development work the last couple years which has created ENORMOUS transformations and working with technologies I can't even begin to describe, and have been going through massive integrations this year from everything I'd been learning and doing prior...

When I got into Steemit, something got activated. With the incentivization - and a realization that a wise management of my energy to create constructively & consistently could provide me the financial means I need to get to where I wanna be with such ease & grace so quickly, the flow just turned ON. There's still creative frustration, because I've got ideas coming for pieces to write faster than I can bang them out

I DJ for a living, but the season is stupid slow this year, so I've got a lot of time on my hands - so the regularity is just a matter of being in action - which surprisingly, has just happened as though there's a fire under my ass. We're in a window of opportunity, and it kinda feels like for all the preparation I've been doing and all the time I was waiting to get focused on something worthwhile - Steemit was the green light. I'm also planning to move back to Canada in November and need a proper income stream, had no idea what - so when this showed up, it was sorta like the universe opening a door - but I had to walk through it by getting fucking obsessive about living up to walking all my talk.

Regarding not being happy with your intellectual posts - that seems kinda like where I was at a few months ago, and was one of the reasons my writing kept stagnating before - so I can relate. I was there for quite a while. It seems I have broken out and spiralled up to a different level - and it's totally possible for you too. If I were asked "how..." Well, I'd have to be asked to be wise to give suggestions. Though asking the right questions can go a long ways... (as can responsible psychedelic use)... 😉🙏