The struggle is real but for me, its what make it interesting. You will never satisfied of being anything. Once you are a dolphin, you want to be a whale, once you are a whale you want to do something else. Our mind keep on finding something that felt rewarding than the experience before. The key is, just be consistent. That's why it is important to write something you are passionate about. We can't control the past and the future, but what we do right now matters. Don't get upset with the result, try to analyse your progress and someday, even not being a whale, you will get much attention that you needed.