5 Months, 5 days

Wow. Didn't think of you too much for awhile there. Lost in the endless tundra of drugs and ugly guys and bad decisions. So many bad decisions. How could you let this happen to me. So embarrassing. You always believed in me and then you did that. Heartless. My life could be totally different.... I can't blame it all on him, I don't think I would have ever stopped if i hadn't actually suffered a real consequence. But my goodness did my faith in other people and happiness just get completely blotted out. I called you today - btw he broke up with the new boyfriend - which, i didn't even care about. Like yes it would've been weird cause i was so needy and i don't understand how he would've found a way out of that. But do you think that going around and acting like such a rotten little jerk and dating some kid for 3 months and still treating me like that was okay? god damnit have some fucking respect. Maybe if you treated my like a human being I would act like one!!