I tried to DM you, my friend - I am really saddened to witness your turmoil - I love your posts and want you to continue. I don't think what's happening to you is typical of the steemit community which is positive and supportive. I have never agreed with downvoting and haven't used this option and never will. I think people should vote for posts they like and leave a comment if the post touches them in some way. I always leave a comment on your posts because they always touch me in some way. Please don't give up, @slowwalker - persevere - this will pass.