Maybe Tomorrow

Can you remove your boot from my windpipe
It's hard to breath and I can't think right
Look at my eyes god and tell me do I deserve to die
I think I do, but I'm losing all of my insight
Sometimes I just sit in silence for a few hours
I contemplate slitting my wrist while taking a shower
I see a happy couple and I only can think of my past
While everyone else is happy I only wanted to pass
Now I'm sorry for bothering you, you must be busy
Not a whole lot of use in talking to me
You're not gonna get through to me, I blocked you out
You ignored me then so don't love me now

Kick me while I'm down
Feed a dog a bone
I always feel nausea
Sitting here alone
Try to send a signal
But I ain't receiving
Staining your carpet
With my body bleeding

Some times I start to imagine shit
Like what would happen if I went off and shit
Killed everybody and then shot myself
Media saying he only needed help
Oh, another middle class tragedy
Forgotten in a year, oh so sad to see
But not once did you care to bother me
Call or text or even say you fuck with me
Where the hell are my fucking friends at
To knock me over the head with a baseball bat
Remind me that the real me is in here still
Calm down Brenden, relax man, chill

Kick me while I'm down
Feed a dog a bone
I always feel nausea
Sitting here alone
Try to send a signal
But I ain't receiving
Staining your carpet
With my body bleeding

I'm betraying my logic
I'm feeling psychotic
But it's all comedic
I'll say I don't mean it
My splatter is my last painting
My canvas is my room
I'm sitting here contemplating
Burn out or go with a boom?

To all the people who loved me
To all those who bandaged my ugly
I appreciate the time and effort
I don't wish to see you all hurt
To my friends back home
You'll know what I'm talking about
I'm gonna see you all real soon
Peace, I'm heading out

Thank you so much for reading, have a good one!