Dear Diary: I Take Blogging As My Psychological Therapy

I don't know what to think in what would happen if not from this blogging therapy that I am doing because if you come to think of it I am always in bed and cannot do anything more productive than this online work that I do so if there had been no Internet like in the old times I maybe even will not be here cluttering the steem blockchain with my nonesense and mindless ponderings.

Oh I remembered the time when there was no Internet but I was still way more able and can walk but still I am as bored as you can imagine that I was close to crying because I am a still new to dialysis and waterlogged like what is happening to me today. So I am not feeling well and have no means of entertainment as I am cashless and cannot go elsewhere. But now I can maybe even take care of myself if not from my disability to move around.

I am so thankful that there is steemit and it does not only contribute to support me medically but mentally as well by giving me an outlet from what I am thinking and I just put all my frustrations in this site which helps me alot overall and I get to meet some real selfless friends in the background that is lingering out there to change my life.

I know that I am bombarded with many problems and obstacles in my life but I am trying now to solve them in a manner that I can extinguish the causes so I should be smart about it all and be as cunning as i can be to outwit the problems as they arise. It is a hard fight because it involves my physical brain and my thoughts which influences my actions.

I will just continue with my life and solve as many problems as I could and try to live this forsakened life as joyful as I can even though joy and happiness are really hard to come by around in my lifetime. I am still thankful to God for the friends that I have and the ones that have the most impact are from online, so God Bless Steemit community.