Dear Diary: I Am Thankful that I Have No Pain Today

I am truly grateful and thankful on days that I have no pain although I still am contending with a rolling numbness sensation on my left flank side I am still really appreciative for such a relief that doesn't come very often. I just hope that this would continue and I also hope that this is a sign of some good things to come for my bone healing because of what medicine that I am taking now.

My medicine is such a burden too for my body because it makes my taste bitter but I am trying to not mind it and fight it through so I can make my body adjust to the side-effects of my medicine. I am about to finish the course of my medicine for two weeks and about four days from now I will have to go for another parathyroid test to see on how my parathyroid hormone had gone down which I personally think will do have an improvement.

I feel okay today, I feel lighter and I also noticed that when I went to the bathroom yesterday when I was cleaning myself so it is a great sign for me so I can finally cook and maybe do some other things in the future without much help from my family.

I am now beginning to get embarrassed as I go to the dialysis center because I am not getting any younger and my parents who are also getting older doesn't deserve taking care of their grown child and it is just that they are only such a good set of parents that they do not throw me away for this matter. But soon maybe I will be the one that will make a great difference in their lives as soon as I lift myself up from a neck-deep mud that I am into but I am full of hope.

A friend that said to send me some medications didn't go into reality, I don't know what happened but that is okay, I still have the majority of the #steemit community behind me and I just regard any help from any friend as a bonus for my life. I just am appreciative for anything that I can enjoy from this life because I had been n some many misery all my life and have missed many thing even to have a family of my own but still I am thankful and grateful that I have God, #steemit community, and my relief from pain.