You haven't failed your self at all. What you have achieved is remarkable. You have respect and it has been earned the hard way. We all love your posts and I know how long it takes but you reply to everyone so they are part of it. You do a complete job. What I mean is you don't just post (half job) but you interact with your replies. Imagine if you didn't respond how many posts you could have done. That isn't you though as you get as much enjoyment responding as you do writing the post. Shit lol, I am getting good at this. Going to bed now late and also rambling.