I'm in a similar situation--not with a mate but with a career that spanned 30 years. I had to let it go for various reasons and went through a very dark period of my life that I am just now coming out of. The balance of inward and outward flow is real, from my experience. The fact that things are getting better in one area means transformation is working, from my experience. I trust that you will thrive and live to love more...