confession story. #25

Female ktm

Hello beautiful souls!
This is a simple dusky girl. I have no idea where to start from.I have never thought that I would be destroyed by 'Love' this way. Love? Or should I say that was just an attraction( as most of the people would claim). The thing is, I have never seen him in real. We met in facebook, he was the friend of my friend. I never intended to become close to him thay time, I guess I was in grade 10. But then slowly we began to talk. Those endless conversations, those evolving feelings! I am not sure what he felt about me, but he was the one to approach and propose me. I didnot respond for somedays, and yhen I accepted him. I accepted him from my inner heart. He had really a good sense of humour. But, why was I excited? I felt special until I realized that he used to talk to everybody like that. I found that he used to flirt with every girls. We both said 'I love you' to each other, but I wasn't lying. And I wasn't the only girl whom he proposed Until I realized I was deeply in love with him. He used to fight with me over useless topics. He shared with me everything, even about porn, sex, smoking and all. I did't mind he wa a smoker. But I hated his habit of sending me those nude pictures thinking as a joke. Ugh! Where was my self respect. Then I thought there was nothing called 'love' between us. He started feeling bored of me, I suppose. So, we stopped talking for 2 months. I tried to forget him. That was the time when the song 'Mein tenu samjhawan' just released. Only I know, how many times I cried hearing that song, It reminded me of him. I even blocked him on facebook and was going well. But suddenly, after a long time, he messages me on viber asking the reason of blocking him. Tears came up. I couldnot control. I said 'etikai'. Conversation Off. Since then, It's been 2 years , we havenot talked . But I still miss him which I don't want to do.