Yes I know what you mean and I'm glad you are growing as am I (slowly but surely). With the price of steem at the moment it is hard to make people understand that the 10 cent they earn on a post may one day be worth alot more. I am using these times to find my voice and learn how to write while not too caught up in the steem I earn. This time on steem is a great training ground. I'm sure for many new users seeing the trending page can see unfair, until of course they find out it is all bought votes. I do hope the whole network can turn around and do what it set out to do. For me, I am still enjoying the ride.