The questions that I have and will continue to pose along with the ones you have posed in your response are questions that I hope to get others to ponder on and seek out. Some of which are questions that I've had since I was a young child growing up in church. Questions that don't need to be stifled, as they frequently are, but sought out with an open heart and a humbleness to change if it so requires. It's good to hear that you have continued in your study for understanding, knowledge and wisdom as many give up all too soon. I pray that you continue to do so..

"My son, if thou wilt receive my words, and hide my commandments with thee; so that thou incline thine ear unto wisdom, and apply thine heart to understanding; yea, if thou criest after knowledge and liftest up thy voice for understanding; if thou seekest her as silver, and searchest for her as for hid treasures; then shalt thou understand the fear of YHVH, and find the knowledge of Elohim."

Keep in touch.. Hope to hear from you again...