11.17.17 - Karma Map Part III + Brief Update

Random stock photo from Pexels because I don't have anything to go along with this post and I'm pressed for time (I love mushrooms tho! Not to eat, just to look at. LOL)

Quick Update - after the little flurry of activity over the past couple of days, this morning things appear to be quiet. The sky is clear, the watchdog is resting soundly, whatever was pushing yesterday seems to have abated for the time being. I'll enjoy the quiet for as long as it lasts despite having a lot of mundane things to attend to today. :)

Funny Story - I may be giving away my location by saying this, but it's too funny to not mention. Earlier this month in my Time Loops/Mandela Effect post, I wrote about the sudden reappearance of an elementary school that myself and several others knew for a fact was closed some time ago. The school was hit by a weird tornado, and then the same week came mention of a former student there who was now playing major league baseball (and oddly enough he kept being referenced in connection to the elementary school he attended, not his former high school). Today I saw in the local news that his major league team won the world series, and this "former elementary school tiger" will be back in town signing autographs. Pretty cool - a timeline where small town dreamers make it big.

To give an overview where I am going with all of my other work, there are still several pieces to get to and I'll try to get it written up as soon as I can (the sooner it's complete, the better):
1 - the original circumstance itself
2 - the patterns that are reflected in my present life
3 - a BIG section of work on the particular tones being restored and what what they actually do (what results I can expect to see and how to begin consciously working with them)
4 - time splintering (the moment a "magnet" was installed in the past, the effect it created, how it affects me now), where it anchored (adrenals)
5 - AI - what my task is in the present once I have my karma sorted out (seeding a new dream and positive timeline for AI once I have healed my creational abilities)
6 - Sirian Magnetic DNA commands. I have not done work before in exactly this manner, but I will either be using them, or using a variation of the commands to install information a different lost ancestral tribe. I actually already have been given some of this in the form of visions, feelings, colors, symbols, etc over the years so it is just a matter of putting them in the right context and place.

*7. I also need to go back this evening and do a review of the New Moon reading I did, and prepare to do a new one tomorrow. Scorpio influences can be difficult (OMG, the Scorpio Full Moon on May 10 was a real doozie in the holon!) , but in general I find this time of the year to overall be the best for me when the world is somewhat turned inward and focused on the holidays.

https://steemit.com/spirituality/@kairomantik/new-moon-beginnings-lunar-cycle-focus-reading

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A prime example of my abstract chaotic order in life, I can't actually write a lot about #1 yet, because I haven't completely seen and understood the original past life and circumstance. I have a general idea of what happened...that I was in a place that was colonized or visited by people who either could not see/understand the natives, or did not listen to their wishes. If the colonists imposed their beliefs, it was subtle - at the moment it's not standing out as something prominent to be cleared. Regardless, extinction of a tribe/race was the result and a lot was lost. How many times has this happened throughout the universe?

It's interesting this showed up as a pattern in my adrenals. I do have a lot of the symptoms of overactive adrenals. I had totally forgotten this until today - back in April I happened to be listening into Dr. Karen Kan's broadcast about adrenal fatigue and she said I had 8 issues keeping my adrenals frozen in fight or flight mode. My guidance at the time showed 1 physical issue, 2 mental (beliefs), 1 emotional (heartache/karma), 3 spiritual (1 dimensional rift, 1 doppelganger issue, 1 implant) and 1 unknown.

It was extensive work clearing the heartache/implant, and a whole wild mess of craziness started up around the doppelganger in another timeline (my teenage self living her ideal timeline... which I was actually sending a lot of energy to because it was where I often wished I had ended up had I made different significant choices.)

Right now I'm getting that I still have the physical issue, one belief, the dimensional rift, and the unknown factor to deal with. Interesting!

The complete passage about adrenal thoughtforms is in the original post, so I won't post all of that again. The energy pattern associated with overactive adrenals is the belief "I am not comfortable with myself. I am not comfortable in my own skin." This is so true, and there is more to say about when this especially became true, in an episode that I will write about later connected to the time splintering and what has me attached to the event that happened in the past that all of a sudden made my energy invert and I went into extreme fear and anxiety.

So this is the belief to be healed, and the intention to heal this is: "I intend unconditional acceptance of myself in the dance of life. I intend to embody my truth in action."

(and that goes along with actually being able to retrieve my truth in action - which is being able to create, which is what I'm working to retrieve)

The more that is revealed here, the more I see how much this pattern has controlled my life for a very long time. Before that event, on the Myers-Briggs test I was an ENFP... very extroverted, always around people, always the life of the party (and there was always a party). In that moment when I shattered, I became introverted (and now I test as an INFJ). Having this anchor/magnet attaching me to this past life energy where I felt so insecure and ignored...is what I have become more and more.

I still desperately want to be liked and accepted by my old friends, which actually does play into that "begging" energy. I almost shapeshift into an entirely different person to try to be liked by them, to be who I was to them when we were all close friends. It takes a lot of energy and actually ends up having the opposite effect... "trying too hard" is a real put-off. Pleading and grasping type energy, is a real put-off. And so the avoidance pattern...me trying to avoid going into that extreme anxiety and desperation to try to find my old way of fitting in... becomes it's opposite - isolation. It's easier for me to just not interact at all anymore.

I will elaborate more on this, but this is the present-life pattern I will be altering. Hopefully working with the indicated tones will be all that is needed. Communion of All Species will help my energy reestablish a feeling of belonging with my proper consensus group. Creation is my missing truth - and having my own truth back (the courage to be creative and sovereign in my own unique truth again) will also help in the way that I am relational with the consensus. :)

More on this later....thanks for reading, and I hope you have a lovely weekend!
<3 K