RE: The Essence of Meditation: Be what you are
First let me say "welcome back" and "I missed you!" I hope all is well and wonderful on the home front.
To the article, this is my favorite line: "So the first step in being what you are is, that you can have absolutely no idea about what you are."
Oh, my goodness! Yes to this. Also, this has particular importance because there is one particularly pernicious ideas about who/what we are that undermines all our well-being and locks us inside an experience of a nightmarish samsara. This is the idea of our insufficiency. Just about every person is raised with this sense of "I'm not enough" with a response of either, "Now let me do something about that," or "I'm hopelessly worthless." And this also gets projected outward as either trying to fix others or condemning others.
Yet in meditation we finally stop this assault on ourselves and others and allow everything to just be. There's no judgment for there is no judge.
For so many of us, meditation was the first experience we had of an extended period of time (a few minutes) in which we finally stopped living under inner attack. Even if we didn't recognize any of this, we knew the difference it feels between being constantly condemned vs. the silencing of that. And that's it. That's enough. Just that is worth creating the time to do more often.
Thank you for this very important post.
Aww! You are so sweet! I missed you too ❤️
About this feeling of inadequacy - it runs very deep in me too. Yesterday I wrote about the Gene Keys material and in my hologentic profile, I got #48 in my "life's purpose" sphere. #48 has as shadow this said feeling of inadequacy - it`s gift frequency is called "resourcefulness" and it's highest frequency is called "wisdom". It's called "The Well" in the original I Ching and in it's essence is one of the archetypes of the divine feminine.
I have over my whole life added so much knowledge, just to avoid this feeling of inadequacy. Unconsciously I was trying to avoid this feeling, through collecting spiritual and non-spiritual wisdom from around the world, like a squirrel that collects nuts to survive the winter.
This has made me a resource for others - which is beautiful - but my real lesson in this is/was, that being "The Well of Wisdom" to stop doubting my own depths and start trusting, that there is always more than enough "water"/resources inside of me. Also not trying to push "my water" onto others, but to drop back, trust and simply offer what is there without the expectation, that is has to be taken by others, to prove my worth.
This sometimes shows in very subtle ways....
In the end - and in it's highest frequency - Gene Key 48 shows us, that there is a huge difference between knowledge and wisdom. Wisdom speaks out of experience and not out of belief - it has authority in a natural way.
Yeah, and much about this path is about trust and letting yourself fall into what you already are, without the need to know, what that really means - the mind may never know... Oh... so much to share about - and speak out of - this topic....
Yes, we could go on at length on this. I'm on my way out the door, but want to acknowledge the depth of your response to my comment. Also, I guess I checked for a post from you yesterday before you left it. I'll have to check later for that other post you mention. Sounds wonderful! ttyl