@jeffberwick. I throw this out there, since you seem to be in a contemplative mood. If you want to try getting some answers from the bible through just listening to some 1/2 hour audiotapes, a nice list of 84 different topics in a quiet conversational explanation about, basically, the meaning of life, http://www.lesfeldick.org. I throw that out there, like I said since you seem to be searching a little bit in your life right now. Don't like to push these things and only mention it because you are asking these meaning of life questions, some great answers on these audiotapes. Any way, I throw that out there, it might help. Wish you the very best, your video's are always interesting to me. Thanks.