MY HISTORY OF LOVE PART I

Even though I am 33 years old, I have not had an easy life, nor have I only experienced difficult situations that anyone can experience in love, but today I tell you about my love story.
I fell in love with the father of my eldest daughter when I was just 16 years old, I had not finished high school at that time 4th year of high school.
I met him on February 12, 2001 youth day through a classmate, 2 days was celebrated on Valentine's Day, that day he arrived and he gave me some chocolates spend the days and invites me to eat ice cream I left but I escaped because if not my mom killed me.
From that day I knew it would be my first love

We became sweethearts on February 21 ... if I know that many thought not spend any time not well known and things like that, but I had never been courted by anyone because it was very ugly or I looked like this, hahahaha .
The truth is that we became boyfriends and was a somewhat complicated relationship he was very jealous, and authoritarian I was very submissive and always felt afraid to leave me, I was very immature I did not think for myself had problems of self-esteem and personality.
My father did not accept it but with the passage of time they were taking love, I think it is normal, they were jealous of parents.
At age 17 I became a mother and the father was 21 years old, I thought my parents would turn their backs on me, but no, they supported me a thousand percent. They did not run away from me, they did not judge me, they did not criticize me, only was that my mother made me marry him, but yes, I admit that they were aware of everything
My daughter DANIELA is born, that in spite of my immaturity for being a very young mother, I always took good care of her and to this day I still do it; I almost had to mature to the blows I had no other, stay up late, fevers, flu, school, colics all those things that were new to me, I had to learn and I had realized that the stage of parties, beaches, departures Meetings I would lose, which I do not regret, because later I studied and graduated as a teacher. a son does not stop wanting to get ahead

My love story with the tapeworm of everything, drama, laughter, abuse, adventures, we were friends, lover, complices was a relationship of young people in fact and when we had a long time of marriage I confess that he had become my boyfriend for a bet What did he do with a friend who got a girlfriend first before the end of February? but he told me that it was his best bet because he had fallen in love with me and I was also his first love.
now only the sad and good memories are left. And the most painful that was his death.

On July 6, 2009 when he was only 28 years old, he was robbed of his life, in a very ugly way when my daughter, who was only 6 years old at the time, could not even dismiss him.

He died being my first love, the love of my life, the father of my oldest daughter, the man who was my first all in life with him I lived many experiences that even in my mind are fresh as if they had been yesterday.
Many people ask me if I have overcome it?
And I answer like that, how can you see the love of your life, your first illusion, the father of your daughter, the man you met and lived many things both good and bad, as you overcome seeing him in a morgue waiting to dress it, touch it, comb it, for the last time?
Stuck in a box giving the last goodbye and knowing that you will not see more, that your daughter will grow up without potatoes, that she will not see her only daughter waltzing in her 15 years and so many things that she will lose my daughter not to enjoy them with their dad, believe that it is easy to overcome? I think not that you only learn to live with that.
I always say no, that is not overcome, as the song says, the first love is wanted and never forgotten and more when that person leaves a part of it for life, my daughter.
It's been almost 9 years since that Tuesday when it was 8:20 in the evening when I received one of the worst news of my life, they killed DANNY, everything is still fresh in my memory and I think that not even a thousand years will pass I will forget it .
They snatched me from the love of my life.
What if I miss him? ... yes and a lot every day I think about it and even more having his daughter who is very similar to him, she always remembers me, in every gesture or things she does!

I only ask God to give my daughter, patience, wisdom and acceptance to face life without him, because if it was difficult for me being his wife for her as a daughter it is very traumatic.
I also ask God to make him rest in peace, to fly very high and give heaven to take care of us, to take good care of his daughter, because I know that even though he is not here on earth with us in his present body, I know that sky will always be next to her and guide her steps so that she is always on the right path

And these were the words that I told him before leaving him that morning, in that cold urn and only in the cemetery; I LOVE YOU MY LOQUITO AND NEVER I WILL FORGET YOU, YOU WERE AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY FIRST LOVE, I kissed him ...
Yes, I gave him one last kiss in his cold and purple mouth, knowing that he would not answer me that he would not take me by the waist and he would kiss me as I did him.
And they know and I did not feel fear, at that moment I thought it was a dream and the next day everything would happen, but no; That's how I said goodbye to him, as I gave him one last kiss.
There was something that in that early morning I kept thinking, that a long time ago he told me once that he would die first, and that I was the one who should dress him, fix, comb, make up and even perfum ... That's how it went; I was with him until that last moment.
Friends of steemit, the first time I published my love story in a social environment, I felt the need to let off steam because I know we all have, had or have a first and great love.
This is the story of mine, a little summarized because so many years can not be written in so few lines, I hope not to bore you.
I know that it will always be our angel.

Thank you
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