Looking Through a Hole

Very few fortunate are there who are under the open sky but almost all of the total humanity is inside their self created room and look at the world to see the whole world through a small hole inside the room .This is entirely impossible. This is how we look at things in the most impossible way. On the other hand the truth of it is not far away only for those who sincerely long for it. It is not far away but it is arduous a work at the instant. It is arduous to achieve, not because of its nature but because of our long term investments in lies. We have invested for lives and lives in lies. Our investment in lies is so much that the very idea of truth makes us frightened. This is the reason why we manage in every possible way to avoid the truth and escape from the truth. Lies are beautiful escapes, convenient and comfortable dreams but the fact must be admitted that dreams are dreams. They can excite you for the moment but only for the moment but undeniable is the fact that each dream is followed by a tremendous frustration; each dream is followed by a tremendous failure. Still we go on perusing into new lies, substituting one lie for the other. If all lies are known, we immediately invent new lies.
It should be remembered that only lies are invented. Truth cannot be invented .Truth is already there. Truth has to be discovered, not invented. Mind feels very comfortable with lies because mind is the inventor of lies, the doer of it. As the mind is the doer, ego is created. With truth mind has nothing to do and because mind has nothing to do mind therefore seizes and with the mind, ego disappears. This is the risk, the ultimate risk.
This fact is very simple but we fail to understand it because we are not simple. To understand it one need a heart because heart is always simple as heart cannot be intellectual by its very nature. A simple heart can understand a simple truth. The centre where the intelligence exists, the candle can be lighted, not at the periphery. This candling cannot be done by words because words are a dangerous game because they communicate at the periphery but silence communes the totality. When a word is communicated ,the meaning remains with the speaker and the listener will give it his own meaning and his own color according to his own preoccupation of mind .It is not certain therefore that ,the fact ,that is meant to be communicated will certainly be something different with the receiver. So the meaning of the fact is definite to be changed. If this happens in the ordinary mundane communication, what will happen to the words of the spiritual plain?
Certainly a spiritual communication through words is quite impossible. So what that is needed is not communication but communion, that is through silence. One can distort a language but one cannot distort a silence. One may understand a silence or may not understand, but one cannot misunderstand it because there is nothing in it to be misunderstood .That is the beauty of silence. With words the case is just the opposite. It is very natural either not to understand or misunderstand through a mind but in case of silent communion the mind is useless and loses its existence to misunderstand.
In the whole existence, everything is joined with everything with an undercurrent silently. A grass leaf joins the star .To destroy a leaf is to destroy something of immense value in existence because there is no hierarchy in existence as there is nothing small or big in it .It knows no difference .The greatest star and the smallest leaf exist as equals. It is all virtuous. Even if we find something which is not a virtue, it is only because of our misunderstanding. Whatsoever happens here happens rightly. The wrong never happens. It only appears wrong to one only because one has a certain idea of what right is. When one looks without any prejudices, nothing is wrong here. Ugly is right and beauty is right. One is just to enjoy it as to how beautifully it is ugly. Because our mind is small our comprehension is small .We cannot see because we are looking through a small whole and therefore see a small part of the total. So the problem lies with us not with the phenomenon at all. One moment it was not there, next moment it is there and the next moment it is gone forever. That is how we are looking at existence. We say something is in the future that comes into the present and then it is gone into the past.
In fact time is a human invention. It is always ‘now’ .Existence knows no past no future .It knows only the present, but we are standing behind a key whole and looking at them. As something suddenly appears, it disappears too, we create time. Before the thing appeared it was there but for us it was in future, then it appeared and we say it to be in present. The thing is gone that we cannot see any more through the small whole. It is that what we say to be past .
Nothing is past, nothing future, all is always present, but our way of looking at is limited. Hence we go on asking why there is misery in this world. Why there is this and that in this world. If we can look out of the whole, all these ‘whys’ would disappear. But to look out of the whole one is to come out of the room. This is what our mind is ,a small key whole, very small as compared to the vast existence. We get attached to the tiny fragment of the truth but if we see the whole, everything is alrtight. Nothing exists wrong. Only God exists, devil is man’s creation, but the problem is that God is wrongly associated with the idea of a person.
God is a law, a presence not a person. He is the greatest theist who knows god is a presence not a person and by personifying God, we look it through a hole and the whole problem starts. ‘That which is ‘is the meaning of the word God. One who wants to know God is one is to discipline oneself in many ways. To discipline one simply means the capacity to know, the availability to know that is to be available to drop all prejudices, to put the mind aside, and to look into the matter without any prejudice. When mind disappears, the ego disappears, and then what remains? Something certainly remains but it cannot be called something .it is nothing means ‘No-Thing’.
The ultimate law is not a thing. It is not an object to be observed. It is one’s interiority. It is the truth which is subjective. This is the difference between fact and truth. A fact is an objective thing. Science goes on searching more and more facts and science will ever arrive the truth. It cannot because truth is the very interiority of the scientist, but the scientist never looks at it. He observes other things but never observes himself. Truth is never a thing, a hypothesis. It is always an experience, hence one’s truth is not another’s truth, cannot be of others.

Dr Sudhansu Dash