@mathworksheets, I think you did a beautiful job of describing a portion of faith that is so hard for human minds to understand. And it hurts my heart a little that you feel the need to apologize at the beginning of your post. I believe in the energy of the universe; in something much larger than myself. And yes, even me typing this response shifts that energy, doesn't it? Is this faith? Religion? To me, those labels don't matter. HUGS and Blessings to you and your family.