Only I Can Judge

As the beginning, I thought I would offer the story of how and why I lost my virginity. Or did I? Still not sure.

This was the day I became addicted to sex.

It was about 3 weeks after my 15th birthday. I was with a friend (let's call him Rick). We had been hanging out for a while. We were not officially dating but we were always together. After sometime atone of his friends house we decided to walk to his house. His mother was home but was always drinking and on pills. She was very nice though.

We went down stairs to the basement. Rick was 15 years old as well and was also addicted to his mothers pain pills. He had taken a few earlier and was pretty high. We sat on his bed and in his pill induced high began to kiss me.

This was an amazing feeling. He ran his hand up my shirt and was fumbling around as I could tell he was not sure what to do and not fully there. I did not know what it was supposed to be like so I thought it was amazing. I kept thinking I wanted to be as high as him to be on the same level and asked him for one of the pills he had. I took the pill and we kept kissing and playing with each other.

Fast forward, Awkwardly as our clothes had come off he reached for his wallet and pulled out a condom. After fumbling with putting it on for about 5 min it was finally on. He slowly climbed on top of me. I was nervous as I did not know what it would be like. I could feel him place the tip of his dick on my pussy and slowly gave some pressure to push it in. After feeling this for a few minutes it had never gone in. I did not understand.

I do now. He was high as hell and his dick would not stay hard enough.

Finally I was able to feel his dick start to slide in. The was a little pain but not much because he wasn't even hard. Every time he would push harder his dick would bend and it would come out.

After about 30 min of this he laid down beside me and literally fell asleep. I was left Horny and was not sure what to do.

I ended up leaving his house and walking home alone. All I could think about was the feeling of the head of his dick inside me and is this considered having sex? Was that it?

I did end up really losing my virginity the next day, but I will leave that for my next post.

Of course these pictures of me are not from when I was 15.