"Allow Me to Speak in a Longing Poem"

Maybe once again I'll look stupid for you
Maybe I'll make you angry and upset
Previously I would have apologized
I just want to talk
My heart is shouting a little
My voice is hoarse
Goresen pen is what will represent him
Or that now has become a scratch chat
My first ignorance was that I was too innocent
I'm not very good at sorting out the flavors
I let the flavor sprout
A long-dead taste
Ah not dead, but dormant
I do not know what's special about you
The taste just appeared
And once again I'm too stupid
I just let it go
I'm stupid
Over time I enjoy this taste as well
Crazy indeed ,, yes i went crazy
Do not know the time anymore
I am looking for you
I want to always know you
What are you doing
And very convenient to be near you
Astaghfirullah ,,, I tried to control it
And I can, though not last long
Again I'm losing ,, I'm too stupid
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Something special from your eyes
Though I did not dare to go on for too long
I can not find eyes that make me as comfortable as your eyes
Eyes that will always remind my father
Again I lost on that flavor
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I honestly expect you
At least have the same taste
Yes it may be stupid
My Egok said so
Aaakhhhhhggggg I say you also have the same taste
Aaakhhhhhgggg stupid me ,, it certainly does not happen to you
But that's my nature
And now I'm getting scared
I smell your dishonesty
Dishonesty, misbehavior, or to your bastard ??
My head wants to break
Thousands of questions I did not find the answer
I did not find the solution
I question you, your attitude, your attention, and the truth of your attitude
I'm frustrated
I asked them, they told me directly to you
Ah it's impossible to do
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Heyyyyy you ,, but now I want to talk
Who am I?
Why is your attitude to me?
Akhhhhh stupid me ,, of course you are too good. Yes it is too good, or even too naughty.
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Heyyyy you ....
If not had the same taste as me
I can understand it
That's okay
But do not do this to me
I am too innocent and stupid
Misunderstood your attention
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Finally the time that made me give up
To me all the questions for you are not important anymore
I just need to run to avoid you
Therefore I choose to distance you from you
You might say ,, this is normal
It's just a misunderstanding
yes I am wrong
But you know,
starting from it all there will be caution that felt to be mocked
yes ,,, that's my heart. Maybe other people's hearts
Just my wish, be a more responsible man
Take a look at what you have chosen.
Let this be my story ,,, do not be your story
I realize it's all my fault, my carelessness, my foolishness,
And my innocence
Forgive my nature that may be beyond this limit
I do not want to bother you
I will pray for you
I just want to be a better woman, better still.
God, please forgive me
Aamiin