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Damn, I lied again :p

just reading back through this again.
Today I am sitting with a headache again
"trying" to write something that explains why we alter our environment in ways that appear to create comfort but remove freedom. how much of our culture and conditoining supports this direction.

I find myself deeply into resistance again, my writing is no longer fun, it is struggle and isolation rather than playful connection.

This is when it is good to have wise and caring people around me.

Thanks for the nudge my friends :)

true caring carries not up-set - to carry sadness, grief without taking it personally - that would be beautiful, feels like it has been years since I truly felt for another.

Bro, only God can be your support, all of us sometimes fall in spirit, doubt, but the way continues...
I understand your condition and so I suggest you to read one very deep story, the author Herman Hesse, the book "the glass bead game" at the end of the book there are 3 biographies, find and read a biography called "the Confessor", there are many answers)

downloading now, thank you friend
I recalibrate my base tension to a natural rhythm in nature such as the movement in the ocean or even breathing, but there are deeper fears that I can not access yet.

God is nature and nature is god, divinity is indivisible - or I am wrong about that, but from what I have felt so far, fear is the illusion of separation created by inflexible memory - opinions/beliefs/stories/strategies to control

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