[Road to Steemfest] The last one standing, fear.

Finally, the last #roadtosteemfest before the actual road to steemfest! The last topic is about our fears and doubts, what could be more interesting?

I don’t have that many irrational fears in life in general but ones i have all somehow related to people. I’m very good at hiding my fears and doubts when I want to, the biggest reason again, other people. I don’t want to give people any more ammos than it is necessary against me. You could say that I have trust issues....

Fears and stress that have popped up because of steemfest are just miniature versions of my irl fears. The biggest of them all, the fear that it will be waste of time.

So...

I’m afraid of wasting time?

Yes. I am. It is the one thing we never can have back when we waste it.

I’m afraid that it won’t be worth all the trouble, all the extra work I’ve been doing because of it. That I will be just standing alone in the corner thinking what was I thinking.
As I said before, this is also my summer vacation, so I have high expectations for it just because of it. At the same time I have no expectations at all what the steemfest is going to be. Confusing.

Even if I have met several steemians in real life already I still stress about it. We all have expectations about how people are going to be, and I’m afraid I don’t reach to those expectations. That I have given wrong kind of impression about my self, that people are just going to disappoint.

I’m not that interesting really. Or I’m I? I know I’m good at my job but is that all I have to offer? I’m I enough ?

We all want to show our best sides and hide insecurities, but can you really know anyone if you don’t have clue about their hopes and fears ?