i think that some experience with a practice such as tai chi would help you elucidate and ground much of what you are experiencing in the real world. our awareness is much larger than most people think but, it is not mystical or magical. our awareness can be trained and used as a great tool for understanding. the phrase psychic ability includes the awareness of things most people don't normally experience. unfortunately, many construe this to include magical thinking. things like walking down the street blindfolded can be accomplished. thing like transforming an apple into an orange, with the power of your mind, cannot. we can accomplish amazing things but, we must learn to avoid wasting our time on things we cannot. learning the difference is the difficult bit.