The eternal awkward crushing stage

I love to make really awkward cute remarks in early crushing stages of mine, and I mostly get remembered by those. All of those poems and cheesy lines really just end up nowhere but in the memories of those who I fell for in the past.

On other days though, all that above are cringe-worthy disgusting cases of corniness that I have to live with, and without any hesitation, something that I'd probably be repeating some other day for someone new. Although, I do believe that a lot is lacking on this impulsive yet natural approach of mine into romance. Of course, evolution is on its way. I have a clearer view of things now, and even though I may still resort to my old ways, but at the very least now, I am more aware.

I still really don't understand, or can't comprehend what's coming after all these, for I have failed getting through this wall in life countless of times now. And maybe this is why I continue to seek what is beyond that wall. Truly, this is a confession of someone who has never been in a relationship, but gave genuinely golden relationship advices from time to time.

We probably are to be in love at our own time. Maybe that is true.