"What if I tell you you can’t be lazy just because you spend loads of time and energy thinking over and disturbing yourself with this nothingness? Often it gets more energy over these thoughts than of actual work. "

Overthinking in a nutshell. True meditation is to improve yourself or to just stay busy.

You don't want to know how much it sometimes pisses me off to kick my own ass to finish the damn checklist every goddamn day.

But then I remember: "Phil, how big and how rich would you be if you have worked everyday in all those 3 years without a break".

Since then when I am emotional I just allow my emotions. But I won't let them stop me from progressing anymore. They are a part of me but not fully me.

You can overcome your emotions like boredom, anxiety, frustration, anger through supreme willpower.

Just get your shit done, I do this every motherfucking day however I feel.

All training is sacrifice to your future self. Sometimes I feel like I am not even living because I am sacrificing my energy and time for my mission every damn day.

What will I do once my mission is complete? Die, because the journey towards ultimate self-actualization never ends.

I will just have more time when I have more money. I will then probably start to travel hard and take care of the garden in my house. But who knows if I will do that...