always tell myself the exact same words but everytime I tried to heal, someone shows up

I always tell myself the exact same words but everytime I tried to heal, someone shows up who seems to have all the tools to fix my broken self, it feels goods, things get better but before the butterflies begin to fly again, He just not cut the wings off but He kills it. Only then I realized, no one else can heal you, It’s only YOU. just give it a time ❤️