PTSD sleep patterns as a teenager

These types of sleepless night actions have stayed with me over the years, but when I was between the age of 8 to 16 the dreams became more involved and they developed into more creative energies and movements. I was in my body when I travelled and my body also experienced the dream. Another type of mind’s eye dream I could see scenes into the future, I could travel into others private spaces or homes experience what they were doing, but they seemed not aware of me. I could travel in time and space and did travel in a spaceship with other beings, anything and everything was possible. Another state was an awareness of people passing on. Some dream states I am with people who are friends, yet I know them not, who I am yet to meet, family who is alive today doing activities together I’ve never done.

During my youth when around the age of 12, I became calm, curious and bold with my dream states. I took more risks, I would practice breathing techniques to set myself into a state where I control particular aspects of my dreams. I would cross my arms across my chest like in a picture of a dead person in a coffin, and breath slowly taking a big breath in, hold it for the count of 7 and exhale then hold for the count of 7. Over a short period of time, this took me time travelling. So time travelling was not quite like Astro-traveling. Astro travelling was more like floating around but my body was not connected and does not experience the dream state as well. So, its more of a mental state of movement, where time travelling is a physical well a whole body including all 7 levels of energy movement through time.

On a side note: during this timeline in my life, I was introduced to hypnotism around the age of 8. My fears of anything to do with needles, was so extreme it was impossible to give me a needle, or do any work dentistry work, hence the hypnotist. More on this later, but what I will say is I learnt maybe better worded is I taught myself with a self thought breathing technique, how to control some parts of my dream states, in a way that gave me some relief on the uncontrollable patterns of PTSD thoughts that came to me in dreams. Also around the age of 12 I had an operation on my right hand, and there was several complications around this operation, including me being overdosed with antiseptic in which I had a very allergic reaction too, so much so, that I was in the operating room for over 12 hours instead of the 2 I was scheduled for. I believe I died and they brought me back to life. Question: Why one would make this type of statement from one so young? Because my dreams changed, once again. I remember scenes the white light and traveled to a place in the universe that was loving and calm. I was assured by what be called Angels, and a Light force so beautiful, all the Angels in which there were hundreds of thousands, all were married to this beautiful white force. I became one of them as well at such a young age how would I have understood this concept? And in our family life we were not religious we did not go to church. Is this what called so deep inside myself gave me a spiritual knowingness for all these years to achieve self -love? I have no idea. But more on that later. The whole hospital experience reinforced my PTSD! At the age of 12…. And I did not know how much this experience affected me until later in my life.

So dreaming after the age of 16 well it was like I was free! Free from the harsh nightmares! The experience of my dreams on many levels changed somehow different. Although, they were time consuming, my brain still was in overdrive, and I was not rested by nights end. The lack of sleep effected my energy, that’s for sure.